i dont even know

im only doing this for kelly right now
all i have to say is today totally sucked

Tuesday-9-15-09

Today was an ok day, it was better than yesterday.

1st hour we had Sarge. and she was a total bitch

the rest went ok till lunch then it all went to hell, i got fucked with all damn day.

the thing that pissed me off the most must have been 8th hour though cause Justin once again decided he had to mess with me and i told him to keep his pants on for just one day until he got home at least and he looked at me and said that he was going to get "bare-ass naked and let his balls be saggin and waving in the wind. he is such an ass.

and then there is the stupid guys that continue to call me shit like "wet-back" "spick" all kinds of racist shit and im so damn close to just flipping the fuck out on all of them it aint even funny..

well i got to go i got to work tonight till like 8 so ill be back then

ttyl

ill leave you with "the greatest challenge in life is to love and be loved in return"and"live life like tomorrow is the last day and have no regrets"

OK FINALLY BACK

ok here is whats happened

over the summer my parents let me go out with the guys ALOT i was like never home i was always with ethan(Ethan Foster)....

i had kick ass partys but the best one was prolly the one that i had on August 7th loland there is more than one reason for that lol

1. it was great we had a campout
2. travis was stupid
3. that is the night things between me and joe started

On the 8th he asked me of mom and dad would care if we started dateing(while in the car on our way to the drag races) and i told him prolly not but i wouldnt care either way....then as we were almost there i asked him if we were going to go out and he said he wanted to if i wanted to and i said yes..

Joseph Warren and I have been together 1month 1week and 2days

he said i love you on the 13th of august while we were at a friends house, and he gave me his class ring a few weeks ago

it feels like we have been together for much longer than that

school started and it kinda sucked but then we got to the carlinville turney for soccer and i had a blast ya i almost got into at least 3 fights but i still loved it...Joe came and watched me play all 4 games he is the first guy to ever come(want to come) and watch me play

saturday of the turney he took me to his moms and i got to finally meet her and his sister kayla, kelly was there too but i had already met her...

i have had fun with my classes so far besides some days in 8th hour because of the guys in there, they take it upon themselves to make my life hell....Ryan Mcdonald was kinda flirting with me one day and joe foundout and got one of his friends to get ahold of ryan (it was one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me). Today as well as otherdays but today was the worst Justin Beavers was pissing me the hell right off by him attempting to take off his pants right in front of me and kept trying to get my attention and sayn shit like ya u want this dont you and oh what you want me to show you cause i will ill whip it out right here right now(yesterday he asked me he could stick his balls in my mouth) what kinda jackass is he i can not believe him.....I am so pissed at him right now one of these days ima flip the fuck out all over him and he wont know what to do

idk anymore home life is not the best and going to school to get away aint helping cause it just adds to it...i wish joe was in town cause then i could go do something with him and get my mind off this shit but he is still at his moms. I cant talk to him right now really cause he has no phone at the moment so its kinda hard but when i do talk to him its a lil better.

well that is all i got to say for now and what ima leave you with is 'live life to the fullest with no regrets" and "the greatest thing youll ever learn is to love someone and be loved in return"

Friday

ok well here u go

yesterday i had fun most of the time......i had to play keep away with trent i was getting it kept away(my footballs----water balls)

today i went to the pool and was hang'n wit Trent, Troy, Errol(idk how 2 spell his name), Kelsea F. and Austin we had a great time
found some stuff out
we (as in me and kelsea) made a scale (with numbered things) for how hot guys are and if we think there hot

1. Face
2. Arms
3. Body (stomach)
4. Ass
5. Other things(u know what i mean LMFAO)
6. Personality
7. (last but not least) Height

7 is because neither me or kelsea want someone too tall cause they have to be in range (so my last is like perfect)

we graded the guys( they all get an extra 3 pts cause we could not think of three other things) on a scale of 1-10

I gave

• Trent_6
• Troy(just friends never more)_4
• Errol_2
• Austin_1

Kelsea gave

• Trent_8
• Troy_9
• Errol_7
• Austin_7

I had such a great time it was really fun today everyone was swimming and getting along....it was great

I got soccer camp starting monday from like 5/5:30 to like 8/9(AT NIGHT)

OMG HE DID THAT IS GREAT KELLY..........IT IS ALSO GREAT BOUT THE BABY WOW TELL HER CONGRATS WHEN SHE HAS IT(idk if its a grl or boi)

ok just let me know kelly

ok well i g2g so

ttfn ttyl and before i go allz i gotz to sayz is----life life to the fullest with no regrets; and dont let the people who dont matter get u down

lyl 3MS BIATCHES

OMG

Ok well here is whats been happening during my summer so far

1. awesome new swimming suit, tie die w/ neon coulrs
   
2. found out that Trent supposedly still likes me, i wanna know of its true
   
3. hanging out at the pool with my friends, like Jeff S. Jeff P. Cassie G. Kelsea F. Levi F. Katie Errol (idk how to spell his name) Brown Niki A.J when she shows up Troy T. [trent the day he came up] ( there are more i just cant think right now) .
   
4. getting a great summer tan, from hanging at the pool
   
5. being bored off my ass (lol kelly)
   
6. 'rose' situation (tell u when i see u kelly, and a.j.)
   
7. DRIVING alot (hopefully stays that way)
   
8. totally crushing on this one guy (kelly u know who im talkn bout (if u dont realize it all u need to know is 'michael')
   
9. MISSING ALL YOU ALREADY,(TEARS : (.... ) WE NEED TO GET TOGETHER
   
10. and last but not least, getting kinda pissed at all the guys who like me right now cause they are major flirts and dont wanna admit it ( just come right out and say something ull get a lot farther with full out honesty then with trying to hide it)
    

well i catch u up more l8er

WE NEED TO GET TOGETHER AND HANG SO IF U ARE FREE COME UP TO THE CITY POOL IM UP THERE LIKE EVERY DAY IF U WANT CALL AND CHECK IF IM GOING U GOT MY NUMBERS

lylas (3MS BIATCHES ..........ROFLMFAO)

alls i gots to say is live life to the fullest with no regrets, and dont let the people who dont matter get u down......

ttfn ttyl g2g bye

Thursday

OMG
THEY BROKE UP
Ok here is the back story
well you all know me and Trent broke up... well he started going out with Erica P. after that and evdidently he caled her too much cause she broke up with him today................. I feel so bad for Trent..... he is 'pissed' bout it and prolly at me cause i said something and he took it the wrong way, but you know what i dont really care cause he did take it out of context

well today was an ok day i mean TWO DAYS COUNTING TODAY LEFT (for me at least)
I WILL MISS YOU GUYS
KELLY, ALY J, GEENA(HAVE FUN IN MICHIGAN AND THEN IN CALI), CASSIE, AMANDA, WHITNEY(HAVE FUM MOVEING), DAKOTA, LACEY, TROY, SHANNON, JAMIE, STEPH, KOURTNEE, BRITTANY W, BRITTANY C, BRITTANY B, CATHY, AND MANY MORE
ILL SEE SOME OF YOU OVER THE SUMMER THOUGH
LY

well g2g ttfn ttyl and i gots to say 2 things today they are live life to the fullest with no regrets, and dont let people who dont matter get you down.

Friday

Hey sorry i havent been on here in a while i have had some issues as you read last time
Well here is the run down
Monday was the last J.V game vs Maschoutah and we lost it was a good game though. I found out on the bus on the way to the game that trent was talking to people at prom bout breaking up with me cause (according to him) i was looking for a long trem thing and he wasnt and it wasnt going to work out that way. My whole thing is that i see a relationship as if it lasts long term thats great; you can spend a long time together as long as you both are happy; and if it dosent last long term that ok too; cause then you have the rest of your life to find that one person that you want to spend the rest of your life with. The thing is he told me it was going to be a long term thing and he wanted to make dure i was ok with that i said ya thats fine by me it was him not me
Tuesday we had practice it sucked
Wednesday we had the last Freshman game it was great we lost but i almost got into a fight in the middle of the game and the feild it was so fun
Thursday was ok i guess we went to D-land with soccer for practice (we had an eating icecream practice) then i went shopping for my party
Today is my party and i am still sittn here at school bored off my ass and this totally sucks although mom is comming to get me next hour so im all good i guess.
well i g2g time to ho back to the room allz i gotz to say is live life to the fullest and regret nothing

DEPRESSED / PISSED

when i got home today i had a message from trent saying (sadly i think) that he dosent think that we should go out anymore he was sorry and to give him a call when i got home and we could talk about it
i had a bad feeling all yesterday that something like this was going to happen that is why i called him yesterday and was going to remind him not to do any thing he would regret (mabey he didnt mabey he did WHO KNOWS)
i am like so depressed cause he made me open myself back up and i knew i shouldnt but i couldnt help it. ONCE AGAIN i am left out to dry and i dont doubt that my heart is about to get re-broken
i have NO IDEA how i am gonna get through this one.....i need help if you guys read this before tomorrow please call me you have my number if not dont bother
well i g2g i cant talk bout it anymore till i know the whole story.

Thursday

Hey sorry i havent gotten to write nuttn on here lately well here is the run down....
I have had soccer games every day this week and it has beel fun.......

Monday we played Waterloo_J.V (lost but whats new) well that was also senior night.....I was trying to hide my hickies(that i got saturday) monday (why i dont know there was no need really caues everyone found out any way) and i couldnt during the game so i was gettn shit a lil bit from the gurl cause they all know that me and trent are together so ya. Mr.Simms made a joke out of it he came up to me and said "hey i thought only seniors were spose to go on college visits" i said "what college visits?" he said ya well where did you go Hickie college?!?!" i laughed my ass off it was great, even the girls on the feild were laughing(BOTH TEAMS), the benches were too(BOTH TEAMS) it was great. Trent was at that game and he was messn wit me too. The one person who shouldnt be cause he did it was makeing fun of me , it was cute though : )

Tuesday was a freshman game and we played Triad(J.V played Galispie that night we didnt get to go cause of the freshman thing they won though along with V) and we lost 13 to 0

Wednessday we played Triad_J.V and wel lost (only 3 to 0 though) we did much better than V. though cause they lost 12 to 0 .

Today we were spose to play C.M(Bethalto) but almost an their everybody quit so we didnt get to (they only have 15 girls TOTAL.
so ya

Well today is a good day. I was ivnited to a prom after-party and i aint even go'n to prom so i am like really happy. Like all my friends want me to go to prom but i would have to be invited by a J.R or a S.R ((and i wasnt)kinda sucks cause i kinda wanted to go but Trent didnt ask me to go with him so too bad)(plus tickets stoped selling Wednessday anyway, i could have paid for my own ticket too but too bad) Well I aint saying that i am mad/sad that he didnt ask me(it would have been AWESOME) but you know it's just that it kinda makes me feel that he is like ashamed or embarassed of me(he dont tell anyone we are together and when they ask him he denies it)(not that thats a bad thing cause it really aint anyones buisness) and i already have low self esteam and that dont help nuttn. All my friends that are going out with a J.R or a S.R are going and so is Trent (with friends) and i would have kinda liked to go but you know what i dont really care cause i already have been told that i am going next year so (even if i dont nest year i got my JR and SR yr's to go). Back to what i was trying to say though i feel special cause Levi invited me to the after-party and only people that are going to prom are going (dont know if i am gonna go or not yet) so ya....

Well thats all i got for you right now so all'z i gots to say is live life to the fullest and dont have any regrets. g2g ttfn ttyl LYL : )

Saturday

Well i got a myspace. I also got in trouble today. Ya its a long story.
I went over to Trent's today. We hung out for a while. We ate. I left to watch my lil bro and my day has gone to hell ever cence.
Well i aint got much to say today just that today hasnt been the best day ever.
Well g2g im on myspace talkn to kelly.
SAY YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE ALL ALREADY KNOW BOUT WHAT HAPPENED SO SAY YES!!!!!(LOL)
ttyl ttfn allz i gots to say is live life to the fullest with no regrets

Thursday

Hey well today we were spose to have a game v.s Gillespie but they postponed it.
I get to get a myspace if i follow my parents rules with it and they are gonna check it and stuff but still.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY, TRISTIN, AND MATHEW.
Today Ryan kept try'n to grab kellys butt LOL (at lunch)(and give her birthday spank'n's). Trent took my hoodie and put it on (also) at lunch today when i went outside wit Lauren to call my mom bout what time to come and get me at school. It smelled like him till the end of 7th hr. Not that it smelled bad cause it didn't it smelled really good actually. Well the back story to that is; well you guys know me and him are together (and it will be 2 weeks tomorrow LOL); my friends (true friends) know we are too (how i really don't know if it was me i didn't mean to let them know but still) and well i told them to watch my stuff and (well they were to some extant) he was standing there with my hoodie on and they were watch'n him. I really dont care though cause its Trent but still. Well he did give it back cause i asked him to.
ok well i went over there today; we were hang'n out while my mom and his mom were hang'n out; and he told his bro trey that me and him were together; that is special cause we dont tell people they just find out and he TOLD his lil bro AWWWWW how sweet.
well my movie is starting so i g2g ttyl ttfn and all'z i gots to now it live life to the fullest and have no regrets.

Wednesday

Hey so here is the run down we had a game yesterday and today, we lost both though.
Yesterday we played Carlinville and it was acually an ok game; still lost though.
Today we played Waterloo ( these games are J.V. by the way) and i had a really hard time; my chest hurt really bad today and i was having probs breathing. Also i twisted my anckle which really hurts now. The worst thing today was that we only had one sub and it wasnt a forward it was a fullback so none of us got to go out (us being fronts and mids) and if we would have had subs with the way I was feeling (feeling meaning my chest and my anckle and my face and my ribs)(mostly my chest) I would have taken my self out and you guys know that is not something i would do in a game. I would have today though.
By the way Kellykins it will be all good. This just shows you who you can trust with things like that (as you said). But still i do believe that you should give them at least one more chance to drop it and get over it; cept i am not you and i cant tell you what to do.
well i g2g i cant stay down stairs any more ttyl and live life to the fullest with no regrets.

Sunday

Hey sorry i havent been on lately but wit soccer and Trent i have been really busy. Ya he asked me out on Friday the 17. what was so cute bout that was he called my mom and dad and asked permission first. Mom threatened him and yet he still asked.
I scored the winning goal at the away J.V game on Friday the one and only game (so far) that we not only won but scored Only me and caroline shot...... and scored It was awesome
ok well saturday i was over at trents all day IT WAS GREAT. i had so much fun he is just really fun to be around. I was helping gretchen(his mom) babysit that day too so it was a busy day.
today i had to watch my lil bro kinda sucks but hey what can i say he has a whole nother year 'fore he can be on his own so ya
well g2g and as always i have one lore thing to say Life life to the fullest with no regrets
ttyl
bye

Monday

Sorry i was busy yesterday and easter was great my aunt kelly's family ( kelly, jake. nathan, and riley) were there and so was my unckle kirks family (Kirk, Shelly_wife, kyle, kody, and sara) and my grandma but that is obvious it was at her house. My mom and dad had an ok time too cause there was no probs. cept my lil bro being an ass and well we all know that is an everyday thing. Trent came with us and my whole family likes him. My cousin nathan likes him and he dont like anyone, nathan is very pertective of me and dont even let my dad hang wit me when hes arround. well the reason i told you that is cause he told me that i should bring trent again and me, trent and nathan can hang out and no one else can have me. (how cute is that)
I have a game today (J.V.) and well prolly loose cause we kinda suck but the J.V. is better than Freshman so we acually have a fighting chance LOL!!!
Well kellykins i realy need to talk to you. havent in 4eva ( feels like). well all i habe to say now is live life to the fullest.

Saturday

well thursday we had a game v.s highland and we didnt even get to play cause it got rained out. we got locked out of the bus cause the other j.v grl are bitches.
friday we had practice and it sucked.
then i went to geena romos adn we had a great time we went to the arch and then dave and busters and spent a whole lot of her moms b/f "tod"z money
tomorro is easter and trent tuey is joining my family for a shitty holiday as always Kari wont be there though so it will be better. well alls i got to say is live life to the fullest and never have any regrets....

Saturday

Hey srry i havent been on in a while my pc was messed up

well here is the run down had soccer practices hung out wit friends had a band comp. (state wide by the way) and other stuff too but not telln bout that.

at soccer practice thursday it was raining and i go5 hit really hard and my face was messed up for a while it still hurts and its still swolesn hope its gone by mon. mon. is j.v's 1st game its gonna be awesome

me and nick got into it and we aint talkn now(kelly & a.j u know y)

i hooked up like 2 or 3 new couples this week (like the last 2 days)

yesterday at the band comp. we got kicked out of a mcdonalds cause we were playn in the funland (dont know wtf its called) it was awesome we got pix of it while we were there so its all good.

watched twilight it was awesome i still am a nutral between jacob and edward though i mean edward is hott but jacob is cute if i had to pick its edward all the way(kelly i bet your the same way)

i talked to my Tia Millisa.

Millisa es la hermana de mi padre Chris. Millisa es muy bien. Bronco y Bear son los hijos de Millisa. Bronco y Bear son muy bien. Zoee es la hija de Millisa. Zoee es muy bien. Aqui es la familia de Millisa.

Pues, aqui es una tia y tres primos de Mikka.

Well g2g ttfn ttyl and all i have to say is life is short so live every day to the fullest(LIVE EVERYDAY LIKE ITS YOUR LAST) cause you never know when your time is up and you don't want to regret not doing something. well bye you'll get more tomorrow

Monday

We didn't have soccer practice today; but we do the rest of this week. Well i guess that is a good thing cause we got a game Monday the 6th and it will be a good game for J.V. Freshman's first game is Wednesday the 8th so ya what fun. the only thing is that we got games like every day after they start and that will be hell ( to anyone who don't love soccer like i do) I WILL LOVE IT!!!!!!!!! The only bad thing is that Genna is our coach for like practices and every thing and that susks i would rather have Simmsy.

Well today was god again Kelly didn't have a good day though and she kept sayn' sorry to me for snapping on me but i got one thing to say to that "Its ME!!!!!!.... i can take it if u ever need anyone to rant and rave to let me know i dont care i can handle it its all good. Also Kellykins i luv ya like a sis-tah (lol) [mi Amiga favorita] you always got a place to go ( like talk to) wit me and you know that.

Well g2g ttfl ttyl and all i have to say is life is short so live every day to the fullest(LIVE EVERYDAY LIKE ITS YOUR LAST) cause you never know when your time is up and you don't want to regret not doing something. well bye you'll get more tomorrow

Friday

well first off Kellykins don't worry bout it you will know what to do (Matt) i like the way u handled it so far.

well today i had soccer practice; whats new; and we had fun i guess i got to play wit someone who knew what they were doing so i actually did something today. stead of just explain how to do it. it was one of the better practices. well tomorrow is Saturday which means scrimmage day so we are all excited unless it rains or snows then we will be in side and i don't know how that will be we haven't done that yet.

English today was another experience i will never forget. (I KNEW IT!!! i told you 4th hr Kelly and guess what that was exactly what i said too.) we got our grades today and mine went up i have all A'z cept 2 B'z and that's cause Foster is a dick and hes a f-tard. and the other is cause i don't like Siemer.

I am approved to get my licence so i am going as soon as i can.

Cliffy K. was in a bad mood today throwing things and all he was having a total Cliff moment (you would have to be there) His b-day was yesterday hes 54 now WOW hes kinda old.

oh and Kellykins i got some nicknames like you asked so read "The Binder" and you'll have them. well ttfn; ttyl; and all i have to say is life is short so live every day to the fullest(LIVE EVERYDAY LIKE ITS YOUR LAST) cause you never know when your time is up and you don't want to regret not doing something. g2g bye all you'll get more tomorrow

Thursday

Sorry i didn't post yesterday nut i was busy well here is the run down the show Ghost Hunters was on and we watch it as a family so ya.

Well today we had an interesting English thanks to Kelly and Aly J(notes) and we laughed so hard that hour. I had soccer practice today it was better i had fun.

I GOT MY SOCCER BAG TODAY....I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!

the soccer bag is a bag that holds all my soccer stuff it is made special for soccer players it had all kinds of places for all my stuff.

we(as in Kelly, Aly. J., and Me) are thinkn' bout lettn Cassie in on the whole note thing but some of us are worried due to the fact of what we write bout so ya (we are having a meeting bout it tomorrow)

well that is all i got for you today i will have more for you tomorrow when i have more time to be on the computer so ya well ttfn, ttyl, and all i have to say is "Life is short; so live it to the fullest; as in live everyday like its your last" l8ter

Tuesday

OMFG we got our uniforms to day ( i am short my away J.V. cause Genna is a

BITCH !!!!!!!) I am happy though

oh and kelly if you want one we can get you the uniforms we were gonna get just let me know(it would be funny if you knew what they looked like LOL)

well today was ok i guess me and kelly are still writing the longest notes and someone else knows bout our situations sides us. it is kinda relieving from my perspective.

I HATE my english teacker mr. siemer with a passion greater than love sometimes. Specially today he gave us this huge book and OMG the story we had to read FML it is like the longest thing i have ever seen (sides that one thing (KELLY you know what i mean)LOL)

well i g2g there will be more tomorro ttyl

Things on my mind

Two Souls, Two Hearts

If you love someone put there name on a circle not a heart; a heart can be broken but a circle goes on forever.

There'c always going to be that one person that no matter what they do, what they say, or how many times they may hurt you.......you just cant let them go because they mean so much to you.

Love is giving someone your heart and trusting them not to break it.

Tell her you admire her when shes upset; hold her tight; pick her out of all the other girls you hang out with. Play with her hair; pick her up; tickle her and wrestle with her. Just talk to her; tell her jokes. Bring her flowers just because. Hold her handl; hold her hand and run........Let her fall asleep in your arms. Tell her she is beautiful; look into her eyes and smile. Kiss her on the forehead....Kiss her in the rain.

If you want to be with her tell her you love her..

The greatest challenge in life is finding someone who knows all your flaws, differences and mistakes and still loves you with everything they have.

True Love is when you shed a tear and still need him. It's wjen he ignores you and you still want him. It's when he loves another but, you still smile and say "I'm happy for you" when all you really want to do is cry and cry... You arent going to be his first, last, or only.....He's loved before and he will again....But if he loves you now, what else matters? He's not perfect and you arent either; The two of you will never be perfect. If he can't make you laugh at least once;because you think twice, and he admits to being human and makeing mistakes...Hold on to him and give him all that you can. He's not going to quote poetry; He's not going to be thinking of you every moment; but he will give you a piece of him that he knows you could break.....Don't hurt him; don't change him; don't expect more than he can give you. Smile when he makes you happy. Yell at him when he makes you mad. Miss him when hes not there.....Tell him you love him.

No matter what he has done if he loves you and you love him thats all that matters.

The greatest thing you could ever learn is to love, and be loved in return.

Open your eyes. Guard your heart. This thing called love could easily rip you apart.

Two souls with but a single thought. Two Hearts that beat as one.---

Written by: Mikka Garcia

~!15 things you probably never knew or even thought about...!~

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At lease 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone the only reason any one would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you someone might not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look; you most likely have turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably wont get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner than later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you receive, and for get the Rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will fell much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know they are great.

New

New to this whole thing so here it goes___today was ok there is this guy i like and i dont know how to tell him i know he likes me and he wants to go out but dont know how to tell him i want to too. So Confused

.....Soccer practice today played with varsity and it was awesome as always got it 2moro to..... cant wait. me and kelly had a intresting thing as of yesterday we are noe closer than ever i feel i can tell her anything just like she can to me and it is great. we are writing eachother notes that are like 3-5 pages long talk bout shareing right.
.....well this guy i like talked to me today like he does every day and we talked bout anything and everything he is so HOTT. he has amazing eyes and he told me i do too...........totally lost on weather to tell him how i feel or just lit it play out and see what happens...