OK FINALLY BACK

ok here is whats happened

over the summer my parents let me go out with the guys ALOT i was like never home i was always with ethan(Ethan Foster)....

i had kick ass partys but the best one was prolly the one that i had on August 7th loland there is more than one reason for that lol

1. it was great we had a campout
2. travis was stupid
3. that is the night things between me and joe started

On the 8th he asked me of mom and dad would care if we started dateing(while in the car on our way to the drag races) and i told him prolly not but i wouldnt care either way....then as we were almost there i asked him if we were going to go out and he said he wanted to if i wanted to and i said yes..

Joseph Warren and I have been together 1month 1week and 2days

he said i love you on the 13th of august while we were at a friends house, and he gave me his class ring a few weeks ago

it feels like we have been together for much longer than that

school started and it kinda sucked but then we got to the carlinville turney for soccer and i had a blast ya i almost got into at least 3 fights but i still loved it...Joe came and watched me play all 4 games he is the first guy to ever come(want to come) and watch me play

saturday of the turney he took me to his moms and i got to finally meet her and his sister kayla, kelly was there too but i had already met her...

i have had fun with my classes so far besides some days in 8th hour because of the guys in there, they take it upon themselves to make my life hell....Ryan Mcdonald was kinda flirting with me one day and joe foundout and got one of his friends to get ahold of ryan (it was one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me). Today as well as otherdays but today was the worst Justin Beavers was pissing me the hell right off by him attempting to take off his pants right in front of me and kept trying to get my attention and sayn shit like ya u want this dont you and oh what you want me to show you cause i will ill whip it out right here right now(yesterday he asked me he could stick his balls in my mouth) what kinda jackass is he i can not believe him.....I am so pissed at him right now one of these days ima flip the fuck out all over him and he wont know what to do

idk anymore home life is not the best and going to school to get away aint helping cause it just adds to it...i wish joe was in town cause then i could go do something with him and get my mind off this shit but he is still at his moms. I cant talk to him right now really cause he has no phone at the moment so its kinda hard but when i do talk to him its a lil better.

well that is all i got to say for now and what ima leave you with is 'live life to the fullest with no regrets" and "the greatest thing youll ever learn is to love someone and be loved in return"

Friday

ok well here u go

yesterday i had fun most of the time......i had to play keep away with trent i was getting it kept away(my footballs----water balls)

today i went to the pool and was hang'n wit Trent, Troy, Errol(idk how 2 spell his name), Kelsea F. and Austin we had a great time
found some stuff out
we (as in me and kelsea) made a scale (with numbered things) for how hot guys are and if we think there hot

1. Face
2. Arms
3. Body (stomach)
4. Ass
5. Other things(u know what i mean LMFAO)
6. Personality
7. (last but not least) Height

7 is because neither me or kelsea want someone too tall cause they have to be in range (so my last is like perfect)

we graded the guys( they all get an extra 3 pts cause we could not think of three other things) on a scale of 1-10

I gave

• Trent_6
• Troy(just friends never more)_4
• Errol_2
• Austin_1

Kelsea gave

• Trent_8
• Troy_9
• Errol_7
• Austin_7

I had such a great time it was really fun today everyone was swimming and getting along....it was great

I got soccer camp starting monday from like 5/5:30 to like 8/9(AT NIGHT)

OMG HE DID THAT IS GREAT KELLY..........IT IS ALSO GREAT BOUT THE BABY WOW TELL HER CONGRATS WHEN SHE HAS IT(idk if its a grl or boi)

ok just let me know kelly

ok well i g2g so

ttfn ttyl and before i go allz i gotz to sayz is----life life to the fullest with no regrets; and dont let the people who dont matter get u down

lyl 3MS BIATCHES

OMG

Ok well here is whats been happening during my summer so far

1. awesome new swimming suit, tie die w/ neon coulrs
   
2. found out that Trent supposedly still likes me, i wanna know of its true
   
3. hanging out at the pool with my friends, like Jeff S. Jeff P. Cassie G. Kelsea F. Levi F. Katie Errol (idk how to spell his name) Brown Niki A.J when she shows up Troy T. [trent the day he came up] ( there are more i just cant think right now) .
   
4. getting a great summer tan, from hanging at the pool
   
5. being bored off my ass (lol kelly)
   
6. 'rose' situation (tell u when i see u kelly, and a.j.)
   
7. DRIVING alot (hopefully stays that way)
   
8. totally crushing on this one guy (kelly u know who im talkn bout (if u dont realize it all u need to know is 'michael')
   
9. MISSING ALL YOU ALREADY,(TEARS : (.... ) WE NEED TO GET TOGETHER
   
10. and last but not least, getting kinda pissed at all the guys who like me right now cause they are major flirts and dont wanna admit it ( just come right out and say something ull get a lot farther with full out honesty then with trying to hide it)
    

well i catch u up more l8er

WE NEED TO GET TOGETHER AND HANG SO IF U ARE FREE COME UP TO THE CITY POOL IM UP THERE LIKE EVERY DAY IF U WANT CALL AND CHECK IF IM GOING U GOT MY NUMBERS

lylas (3MS BIATCHES ..........ROFLMFAO)

alls i gots to say is live life to the fullest with no regrets, and dont let the people who dont matter get u down......

ttfn ttyl g2g bye

Thursday

OMG
THEY BROKE UP
Ok here is the back story
well you all know me and Trent broke up... well he started going out with Erica P. after that and evdidently he caled her too much cause she broke up with him today................. I feel so bad for Trent..... he is 'pissed' bout it and prolly at me cause i said something and he took it the wrong way, but you know what i dont really care cause he did take it out of context

well today was an ok day i mean TWO DAYS COUNTING TODAY LEFT (for me at least)
I WILL MISS YOU GUYS
KELLY, ALY J, GEENA(HAVE FUN IN MICHIGAN AND THEN IN CALI), CASSIE, AMANDA, WHITNEY(HAVE FUM MOVEING), DAKOTA, LACEY, TROY, SHANNON, JAMIE, STEPH, KOURTNEE, BRITTANY W, BRITTANY C, BRITTANY B, CATHY, AND MANY MORE
ILL SEE SOME OF YOU OVER THE SUMMER THOUGH
LY

well g2g ttfn ttyl and i gots to say 2 things today they are live life to the fullest with no regrets, and dont let people who dont matter get you down.

Friday

Hey sorry i havent been on here in a while i have had some issues as you read last time
Well here is the run down
Monday was the last J.V game vs Maschoutah and we lost it was a good game though. I found out on the bus on the way to the game that trent was talking to people at prom bout breaking up with me cause (according to him) i was looking for a long trem thing and he wasnt and it wasnt going to work out that way. My whole thing is that i see a relationship as if it lasts long term thats great; you can spend a long time together as long as you both are happy; and if it dosent last long term that ok too; cause then you have the rest of your life to find that one person that you want to spend the rest of your life with. The thing is he told me it was going to be a long term thing and he wanted to make dure i was ok with that i said ya thats fine by me it was him not me
Tuesday we had practice it sucked
Wednesday we had the last Freshman game it was great we lost but i almost got into a fight in the middle of the game and the feild it was so fun
Thursday was ok i guess we went to D-land with soccer for practice (we had an eating icecream practice) then i went shopping for my party
Today is my party and i am still sittn here at school bored off my ass and this totally sucks although mom is comming to get me next hour so im all good i guess.
well i g2g time to ho back to the room allz i gotz to say is live life to the fullest and regret nothing

DEPRESSED / PISSED

when i got home today i had a message from trent saying (sadly i think) that he dosent think that we should go out anymore he was sorry and to give him a call when i got home and we could talk about it
i had a bad feeling all yesterday that something like this was going to happen that is why i called him yesterday and was going to remind him not to do any thing he would regret (mabey he didnt mabey he did WHO KNOWS)
i am like so depressed cause he made me open myself back up and i knew i shouldnt but i couldnt help it. ONCE AGAIN i am left out to dry and i dont doubt that my heart is about to get re-broken
i have NO IDEA how i am gonna get through this one.....i need help if you guys read this before tomorrow please call me you have my number if not dont bother
well i g2g i cant talk bout it anymore till i know the whole story.

Thursday

Hey sorry i havent gotten to write nuttn on here lately well here is the run down....
I have had soccer games every day this week and it has beel fun.......

Monday we played Waterloo_J.V (lost but whats new) well that was also senior night.....I was trying to hide my hickies(that i got saturday) monday (why i dont know there was no need really caues everyone found out any way) and i couldnt during the game so i was gettn shit a lil bit from the gurl cause they all know that me and trent are together so ya. Mr.Simms made a joke out of it he came up to me and said "hey i thought only seniors were spose to go on college visits" i said "what college visits?" he said ya well where did you go Hickie college?!?!" i laughed my ass off it was great, even the girls on the feild were laughing(BOTH TEAMS), the benches were too(BOTH TEAMS) it was great. Trent was at that game and he was messn wit me too. The one person who shouldnt be cause he did it was makeing fun of me , it was cute though : )

Tuesday was a freshman game and we played Triad(J.V played Galispie that night we didnt get to go cause of the freshman thing they won though along with V) and we lost 13 to 0

Wednessday we played Triad_J.V and wel lost (only 3 to 0 though) we did much better than V. though cause they lost 12 to 0 .

Today we were spose to play C.M(Bethalto) but almost an their everybody quit so we didnt get to (they only have 15 girls TOTAL.
so ya

Well today is a good day. I was ivnited to a prom after-party and i aint even go'n to prom so i am like really happy. Like all my friends want me to go to prom but i would have to be invited by a J.R or a S.R ((and i wasnt)kinda sucks cause i kinda wanted to go but Trent didnt ask me to go with him so too bad)(plus tickets stoped selling Wednessday anyway, i could have paid for my own ticket too but too bad) Well I aint saying that i am mad/sad that he didnt ask me(it would have been AWESOME) but you know it's just that it kinda makes me feel that he is like ashamed or embarassed of me(he dont tell anyone we are together and when they ask him he denies it)(not that thats a bad thing cause it really aint anyones buisness) and i already have low self esteam and that dont help nuttn. All my friends that are going out with a J.R or a S.R are going and so is Trent (with friends) and i would have kinda liked to go but you know what i dont really care cause i already have been told that i am going next year so (even if i dont nest year i got my JR and SR yr's to go). Back to what i was trying to say though i feel special cause Levi invited me to the after-party and only people that are going to prom are going (dont know if i am gonna go or not yet) so ya....

Well thats all i got for you right now so all'z i gots to say is live life to the fullest and dont have any regrets. g2g ttfn ttyl LYL : )